Will be doing an animation for my friend’s wedding and her wedding photos montage. It’s been a long since i done any serious animation and I am quite stressed sia! But what to do, she’s my best friend, I got to do the best I can for her. >.>

My life is all revolving around weddings now as I am doing a wedding website for another friend. Geez!

Then I woke up.

>.>

In the same position, in the same room and with the same action of reaching for my phone, I felt a sense of de javu.

Not the first time I had this kind of ‘dream’. But I have to say this time round was more scary and more real. No, I am not talking about spiritual beings, at least I think it can’t be since it happened in the morning where I woke up around 8+ and went back to sleep.

So my only guess is I must be freaking tire out. Given that I slept only a total of 5 hours over the weekends. I dreamt of a wholeload of weird things, I only remember them being weird but can’t remember what are the weird parts. All I know is those dreams made me freaking tired. -_-

On sat, after the wedding dinner at intercontinental hotel at bugis, I went st james to meet up with lei, yp, r n joe. It wasn’t the best night as none of us drank alot and were too sober to really enjoy the crowds and the only highlights of the night would be the low v-back hongkong gal that my guy pals were laying their eyes on.

After deciding that we needed more booze, only to get too much of it such that all of them were comtemplating to sleep in their cars instead, with so many police just outside of st. james. It’s been quite a while since we went to chiong and geez, I kinda missed it.

Nonetheless, I totally shared his sentiments. Anyone who ever talked to me on this topic would know I am kinda of an anti-marriage person. Anyone who asked me if I am planning to get married, I will give you this “Are you kidding?” kind of look.

Not that I am planning to be a nun. I doubt I will ever be disciplined enough to be one.

But let’s just say for reasons even that I couldn’t describe, I have this phobia of being married.

He mentioned, the 3 wrong reasons to get married, the 3 reasons to not to get married and finally the only reason to get married. At first I thought, the only reason to get married will be Love. That would suits the situation right? After all, it’s a wedding ceremony.

However, he continues to baffle me by saying that, it is a mystery that a man and a woman will want to get married.  And that reason remains unknown, it’s a mystery.

I never believed in marriage. Maybe because I have seen people getting the paper signed for all the wrong reasons. Some regretted, some are still living with it, and perhaps, some are truly happy.

Yet it doesn’t motivate me one bit to want to exchange the freedom I have now for a piece of paper, of the status, of the priviledges or whatsoever other reasons/benefits there might be. If you are getting married for these reasons, how different is that from a business transaction?

Nonetheless, I am still happy for my friends who are getting married. Perhaps for them, they found the reason to want to live the rest of their lives together and I will definitely give them all my blessings and well wishes. In fact, I am pretty hyped about my very good friend who will be getting married this coming January. I truly feel so happy for her, after being with her bf for 5 long years.

Altho she is already anticipating plenty of disagreements after marriage, but I could tell she is really happy. For the moment at least.

For someone who has been living at the better side of life, driving around in daddy’s big car, investing with money from mommy and someone who has probably never lay his hands at working, to scowl at distaste at people who are seeking help of getting their money back from the failure of the Lehman Brothers minibonds, just super pissed me off.

Is ignorant a crime?

If given a choice and chance to learn about risk mangement which is like alien topic in Singapore’s education system, and if given the information they might lose 100% of their investment, how many of that 500 investors would it be now?

And for you, to not to understand people’s misery, suffering and the lost of their future retirement funds, and to gleefully tell them to stop whining, is that not a form of ignorant? Ignorant of the fact that not all people has the luxury nor knowledge of earning thousands in a couple of clicks, ignorant of the fact that there are lesser educated people in this world who earn their living with their own hands more than 8 hours a day, ignorant of the fact that how rare it is to find highly educated retirees who actually knows about risk mangement.

Being ignorant is not a crime, but to me, lack of compassion is.

Did you read the news of a paralysed man who had invested his compensation money in the minibonds after heeding a friend’s advice? Did you read the news of the old couple who had invested all their lifelong savings in the minibonds after an agent told them of only the lucrative returns? Did you read anything other than financial news that involves numbers, profits and losses?

Money is the root of all evil. But what evil has they done here? By losing their money unknowingly and unwillingly? Greed you said, but why not you said it was trust of these people who seems so sincere in helping them to earn additional interests. SO they shouldn’t trust them, they are ignorant and shouldn’t blame anyone for it, i can hear u retort.

So what. Ignorant is not a crime and the bank’s representatives have the responsibilities to ensure all of them understand each and single clause which they do not understand and of all the possible risks involved. Else what the hell are those people for? Just to dupe them into investing and earn from their commissions and pretend to care for their futures?

Not being able to understand risk management? Or not being able to understand everyday’s people’s sufferings?

Who is more ignorant?

And who were writing an entry just before to laugh at youngster of being spoilt brats. You try so hard to be superior but being superior in knowledge is nothing great. Having access to tons of information and learnings doesn’t make you more superior. With all the knowledge in the world yet I find no knowledge of real poverty, misery and suffering in you. And for such a person to look at those in distress and stare at disbelief at their ignorance and silliness and wonder in puzzled how they got themselves into such a mess, is just a big joke.

and it has been a while since i feel the need to write something..

i have no idea what i want to write,
i have no idea what am i feeling,
i have no idea what i want,

i feel like a kid all over again. the times where you thought being an adult is what you want but when you reached that stage, you wished you never reached there. and suddenly you feel lost again.

i thought i was way over that stage. i thought i know what i wanted. i thought this is what i have been wanting. but once again when i am here, i look around, i have no idea what is around me at all.

what lies ahead, i have no idea. yet i do not wish to turn back. i don’t want to turn back.

but i cant move, i feel too tired to inch forward.

这 世界 笑了 于是你合群的一起笑了

上帝创世纪只花7天,一只蝉一生只活7天
五月天第七张专辑一等就是700天

五月天[作品7号]2008纯新原创天碟

作词：五月天 作曲：五月天

　　人 群中 哭着 你只想变成透明的颜色
你再也不会梦 或痛 或心动了
你已经决定了 你已经决定了
你 静静 忍着 紧紧把昨天在拳心握着
而回忆越是甜 就是 越伤人了
越是在 手心留下 密密麻麻 深深浅浅 的刀割
你不是真正的快乐 你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了 也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳
这 世界 笑了 于是你合群的一起笑了
当生存是规则 不是 你的选择
于是你 含着眼泪 飘飘荡荡 跌跌撞撞 的走着
你不是真正的快乐 你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了 也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳
你不是真正的快乐 你的伤从不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左侧 却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了 然后才后悔着
你值得真正的快乐 你应该脱下你穿的保护色
为什么失去了 还要被惩罚呢
能不能就让 悲伤全部 结束在此刻 重新开始活着

the only good news is, morten gamst pedersen of blackburn is so cute!! =P

and so is Roque Santa Cruz!

They are officially my favourite team now. Ahahaha!

After the hectic month plus of work and unending work, I have officially lost my momentum to do work of any kind. And the worse thing is I am just so happy slacking my days away. -_-

This is bad. Really bad. =\

Which explains why there isn’t any updates, nothing much to update really haha. Except that I’ll be going taiwan soon!! Finally, after saying it for so long. I had researched so much about it previously that when we were at NATAS few weeks back, the agent actually thought I am from taiwan as I know so much hahah!

I only hope the weather is fine. It better be fine!

And I think I need another hobby. WOW is corrupting my mind and you guys think playing games are fun and stressless, man you just don’t know how in game community is like the real world. All about in power and status and materialistic gains and profits and weird rules and unfairness. Why can’t a game just be like in the past, I just need super mario to rescue the princess and tata game over, mission accomplished and move on!

Now not only you have tons of goals to accomplish but your achievements are largely affected by the ppl playing with you. And unfortunately not everyone are nice and accomodating, fair and just. They see you by your gears, your status, who you are in game, how useful you are and how you can do to contribute to help them accomplish what they want. If you’re good, they reward you with a cookie, if you’re not, oh well. Tough luck then.

Its all about being useful. Geez I feel so useless!

J/K.

p/s: Not intended for anyone, just own self ranting.

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